Metropolis - Center of the Sun

This is a fan vid or something for an anime called Metropolis. I'm not a fan of anime but I absolutely love this song! It's Center of the Sun by Conjure One.

Favourite song of the moment!

change blows

Everything is so different this year.

Mostly it blows.

Don't get me wrong, hubby and I have met some wonderful people since we've moved here. We haven't known them long but already we adore all of them.

But I miss the way things used to be.

I miss our big Christmas parties every year. Our friends and family would all pile into our little house with our gigantic Christmas tree and proceed to get loud and crazy. Everyone always had so much fun.

I know it's a silly and selfish thing to be down about but I also miss that we seemed to be the center of everyone's world. We were the ones expected to hold the Christmas party (as well as several others) at our house each year.

A couple of months ahead of each party, people would start asking us when it was going to be so they could make sure that night was free. One year we decided not to have our summer party and everyone gave us shit for two years straight.

And I miss the history.

I miss the history of having Christmas on the street I grew up on.

I miss the history of my old house...it was my grandfather's house.

I miss the history of my relationships. At any given gathering, everyone felt comfortable with everyone else because we all knew each other and had known each other for years.

FFS, I've known my best friend for 20 years now.

This year it's all new with no history and I'm finding it difficult.

There's no snow, my tree(while fat)is smaller than usual, there will be no big Christmas party will all my friends and family, and I have no history with my friends here.

Yes I know, it takes time to build up new traditions...new history...but I'm not so good with waiting.

Change blows.

Let the mocking commence

Mock me because last night I woke up suddenly due to choking on my own drool. I then proceeded to cough and hack for an hour. Of course, coughing and hacking uncontrollably makes my eyes and nose run nonstop.

Picture it:

-my red stunned and sleepy face, me hacking and coughing uncontrollably, a pile of wadded up used tissues around me, tears streaming down my face, and me constantly swallowing the sudden copius amounts of drool collecting in my mouth.

Finish the picture off with a burp because of all the swallowing.

So attractive I know. You can hardly stand it.

It's a curse, I tell ya.

*snort*

humbug

I started decorating the house today.

Holy hell it's depressing me.

Everytime I pulled another Santa or Nutcracker out of the box I had to choke back tears.

Meh...think I'll go soak my head.

WTF is wrong with me???

Gaaah!

Three times in the last 2 weeks I've forgotten to take my meds.

Forgot again tonight and am now all fucked up.

It sucks because I was having such a great day too.

Hubby brought breakfast in bed and we watched Penn & Teller:Bullshit!. In the afternoon we went out with some friends and had fun then had a nice dinner. We finished the evening off with some wine that was flavoured with cherries and chocolate (I'm drooling just thinking about it).

The day kicked ass!

And now I'm all messed up because I'm a dork and forgot to take my pills.

*sigh*