change blows
Mostly it blows.
Don't get me wrong, hubby and I have met some wonderful people since we've moved here. We haven't known them long but already we adore all of them.
But I miss the way things used to be.
I miss our big Christmas parties every year. Our friends and family would all pile into our little house with our gigantic Christmas tree and proceed to get loud and crazy. Everyone always had so much fun.
I know it's a silly and selfish thing to be down about but I also miss that we seemed to be the center of everyone's world. We were the ones expected to hold the Christmas party (as well as several others) at our house each year.
A couple of months ahead of each party, people would start asking us when it was going to be so they could make sure that night was free. One year we decided not to have our summer party and everyone gave us shit for two years straight.
And I miss the history.
I miss the history of having Christmas on the street I grew up on.
I miss the history of my old house...it was my grandfather's house.
I miss the history of my relationships. At any given gathering, everyone felt comfortable with everyone else because we all knew each other and had known each other for years.
FFS, I've known my best friend for 20 years now.
This year it's all new with no history and I'm finding it difficult.
There's no snow, my tree(while fat)is smaller than usual, there will be no big Christmas party will all my friends and family, and I have no history with my friends here.
Yes I know, it takes time to build up new traditions...new history...but I'm not so good with waiting.
Change blows.
posted by Amanda at 12:41 AM
2 Comments:
We all miss you too, and we'll miss the parties and going over at Christmas, but just remember the most important person of all will be with you - Dave. We're all still here, and we all have phones, so we'll be able to wish each other Merry Christmas! Just try to enjoy the holidays with your hubby and your pets - new traditions will be made, but with bits and pieces of the old ones thrown in as well. And if all else fails, just get polluted and sing carols at the top of your lungs - might work!! LOL...Talk to you soon!!!!
Love You!!!!
And don't forget...we're going back down on the 28th-29th. Maybe we can set something up where we don't host, but we get to be around everyone in almost the same way!
Love ya tonnes Babe!
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